By Dahr Jamail
Interviewed by Carmen Rumbaut
Excerpted and edited by Carolyn Treadway
Introduction:
In this Gaian Gathering presentation, Network Weaver Carmen Rumbaut interviewed award winning journalist and author Dahr Jamail about his work that has focused on how the dominant culture is destroying life on Earth. Dahr also shared his personal journey of truly learning to honor his pain, which led him to seeing with new eyes and then to ever deepening action.
Dahr began the interview by sharing the powerful story of being challenged by Duane French, a high-level quadriplegic, three days after Dahr had started working as his personal assistant. [Do watch the presentation video to see Dahr tell this very compelling story.] It taught Dahr to listen, show up, pay attention, and see the world through the other person’s eyes. It also started Dahr’s understanding of what’s going on politically, and how that affects everyone. Difficulties for his friend Duane opened Dahr’s heart. Dahr then told of his involvement with Iraq and with Joanna:
Once that [Iraq] war was launched and the suffering and death toll increased, I just knew I needed to go there.
I think it was because my heart broke, because I really let myself see very clearly what was happening.
I did this crazy thing of figuring out how to get into Iraq. I went there simply with a goal of writing about these human beings, and how they were being affected. I just wanted to see that with my own eyes and tell that truth, because that was what was being grossly overlooked in the media, just like Gaza right now. I wanted to report in hopes that it would help people see and know what was going on. I ended up turning into a journalist and reporting on Iraq for years. And that is what led me to meeting Joanna.
I returned from Iraq with severe PTSD. I was really angry and traumatized from what I had seen.
That’s when I knew this woman knows what she’s doing and is seeing things in a very deep way. Joanna said that the horrible news of war crimes and atrocities is hard to hear and take in, thus my reporting was like oxygen, because in this country, we’re just not being told the truth. It was like oxygen while we were being strangled by lies. And that was really my introduction to her in the Work and the importance of bearing witness and letting my heart be broken.
That Intensive started my awareness that my work needed to come from my heart, not from my anger.
Carmen asked Dahr to speak about moral injury—the injury from witnessing what is happening and feeling hopelessness and shame or somehow being part of what caused it.
Dahr told of the moral wounding from believing in a country that claimed it was doing wartime actions for the right cause and then seeing military leaders committing war crimes and atrocities, which breaks our hearts in a very special kind of way. It is its own kind of trauma. And now we are all living with moral trauma every day because of all the horrible things being done to the earth, and so on. [Please see the presentation video for more on this topic.]
In the last part of the interview, Carmen asked Dahr to speak about what he has learned from his work with Indigenous people, how they view what this dominant culture is doing, and with some idea of how we need to shift and change. Dahr replied:
When I finished ranting, he’d say “Welcome to Indian country.” I soon learned not to rant.
Again, I think back to honoring our pain, and seeing clearly with new eyes. And until we do that, we’re trying to build a structure on top of sand, which won’t work. To this day the Indigenous population in this country is not getting its fair due and is largely continuing to suffer from erasure. What has been done and continues to be done is not acknowledged.
These are people who have been going through the great unraveling for hundreds and hundreds of years, ever since first contact.
How we treat ourselves is how we treat the earth.
I think it comes down to just being a good human being, having my heart open and having compassion for other people, it doesn’t matter what color they are, their religion, or where they live. Anytime I see something egregious happening to another human being, am I willing to have my heart broken, have compassion, and put myself in their shoes? If I am, then that’s going to lead me into ‘what do I need to do?’ Compassion pulled me to Iraq, to try to help.
I can’t really come from compassion unless my heart is broken.
It is my honor to be part of anything that pays tribute to Joanna Macy and all the work she’s done for the earth over all the decades that she’s been on the planet. Her work has impacted and changed my life in ways that I would literally not be who I am today, had I not met her and had the opportunity to do the Work with her. Anything I can do to honor that and pay tribute to her is really my honor and pleasure. Thank you for this opportunity.
This article is an edited transcription of a talk given at the Gaian Gathering of the Work That Reconnects Network in November 2023. A video of the full talk is available on the WTR Network website here.
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Dahr Jamail is an award winning journalist whose work has focused on how the dominant culture is destroying life on Earth. His writing and podcasts provide us with a clear understanding that enables us to see and feel this deeply, thus allowing us to begin going through the spiral in a positive way. .
Dahr’s books include: Beyond the Green Zone: Dispatches from an Unembedded Journalist in Occupied Iraq; The End of Ice: Bearing Witness and Finding Meaning in the Path of Climate Disruption; and We Are the Middle of Forever: Indigenous Voices from Turtle Island on the Changing Earth (co-edited with Stan Rushworth).